Three month break

Well, i'm going home. Three whole months of aizawl summer. Sweet!!
To me, slow net access equals no net access. So my blog will remain pretty much the same for the next three months. Solly ^^
I'd better pack up my pc now. I don't want to miss my flight.

Ugh #2

I'm totally screwed for tomorrow's exam - today's rather - its dawn already - damn!!
I have now elapsed into that phase where, after trying to squeeze in a semester's worth of knowledge into my head in one night, i no longer care about my grades - i just wanna make it through to the next sem. I'd better catch some Zs now...

"Pull down thy vanity"

Its neither the fame nor the success that changes a person. Its the desire to flaunt it that makes the person a jerk, an asshole, a stuck-up. But seeing this in others can actually bring the guy back down to earth.
So keep your eyes peeled for those you can learn from ;)
And beware - even a little bit of fame/success can fuck you up bad. Look at Osama >:)

Gray

I got out of bed and turned on my pc to write this.

As long as i can remember, i have been fighting my introvertedness, my social incapability, my inability to articulate my thoughts into spoken words. There was no question of choice for me, i did not have any option other than to fight. Sometimes i don't even realize it but my struggle has manifested itself in many forms. I do things that are in direct opposition to what my reclusive self preaches (and are most of the times dead boring to me.) I try not to miss any chance to show up the introvert in me, to prove him wrong, to humiliate him.

I believe that if i keep fighting (or fight long enough or hard enough) i will gradually (or eventually) become this person that i love to be - this person who is not uncomfortable at your presence, or does not look at gatherings with apprehension, or does not shy away from (even slightly) "remarkable" people. Words come naturally to this person - and sometimes these words are even funny.

Lately, however, i have come to realize that i can be comfortable just being myself. I have found that i am not disgusted at myself for being the introvert that i really am. Society recognizes people like me and has a place for people like me. In other words, people just understand that i don't talk so much and that i'm not really interested in many of the things they are about. Now i see that the people who seemed rather distant and not really part of "the group" were just comfortable being themselves in their own ways.

But i want to be that other person - he has so much fun. I have come such a long way just to give in to myself now. I'm thoroughly confused now. I tread the gray path so to say. I guess i'll just have to stop thinking about all this and just let things go their own way.

I hate myself for writing and posting this. The struggle continues

Wow!! #2

Q : When does a gig attain the status of being totally mind-blowingly armageddonic?

A : When the vocalist starts running around among the wild and fired up headbangin' crowd spittin' out his rhymes occasionally screaming the lyrics in unison with someone who wants a piece of the mic!!

The second gig in three days and it don't stop
I was feeling a little weak but it don't quit
^_^

Wow!!

Man that was awesome!! Nothing beats screaming out "All hell can't stop us now!!" at the top of your voice, and then to come out of your state of trance to find a crowd all fired up with their "fists in the air." Well the crowd was a bit small but they had the enthu of a crowd ten times larger. Guys thank you for the support and to the other guys - thank you for the music ^^ (if any of you ever read this)

Ugh

I am so deprived of sleep right now. My productivity over the last 48 hours is so low the local electronics shop wouldn't hire me. I have two exams tomorrow for which i thought i would prepare by missing today's classes. Instead i watched seven episodes of Will & Grace. Damn my life is out of control. At least i still update my blog. I'm going to sleep now hoping everything works out tomorrow